Leda is going to be 8 months old in 2 days. I thought when she turned 6 months I was going to find it difficult, but I was OK. I also did fine with 7 months, but I am not doing so well with 8. I have thought about it a lot and it really isn't to difficult to find a hundred reasons why it is making me sad. The baby phase goes by too fast. I think it is normal to want your child to stay little and although I am excited for Leda's future and all the fun things I know she is going to do, I will miss my tiny baby. I am already starting to think about her first Birthday and that alone is hard to come to terms with.
I think the biggest reason why this is so hard is because this time last year I was 4 1/2 months pregnant. It was the time I felt really secure with my pregnancy and really started to enjoy it. I miss being pregnant. It was also the time I started to really look forward to my maternity leave and now I have think about going back soon. I think I just have a lot of mixed emotions about a lot of things right now.
Leda is still a little baby and I need to be careful that I am not rushing her growing up by worrying about it so much. I need to focus and just enjoy every day for what it is and most days I do.
What month was the hardest for everyone when your children were small? Did you ever want them to go back to being small little sleeping lumps of sweetness?
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